My Target

I've been thinking about losing weight. It's my own initiative. No one is forcing, okey? It's just that I think it's time to do so, you know, sometimes we have to have the click...only then we'll feel like doing it. So, my ideal weight is:

Yeah, 55kg. I still have a long way to go. So this is what I will do:

REDUCE:

1. meat...

2. junk food (though I seldom had it)...

3. oily food...

Replace with:

1. fruits

2.veges

3. low fat yogurt

These things is based on all those things I've been taking/should take while I'm studying.

And the most important thing,

EXERCISE!!

Cross fingers that I'll disciplined myself!

him, we and Him

He'll never know you, but you need to recognise him. Once you'd encountered him, there are two possibilities: either you make it, or you failed to do it. But the options are not in your hand. There are in His hand. He will made the decision for you and you can't fight back the decision that He had made. You just have to accept it, no matter you like it or not.

He is very dangerous. He might come and go, just like a normal visitor. But somehow, when he think it's time, he'll attack you like you've never seen before. And that's the horrible and scariest thing he can do. You'll never know when he's gonna attack you. You just have to be alert and waited to be ambush by him.

There are many many factors that led him to start the attack , and I think one of the important factor is food. Probably types of food that we tend to take makes him feel anger and hatred to us, and thus, he make such an attack to warn us that we should not ignore and neglect him. However, it's not 100% our fault. We are only human. You and I tend to do anything that crosses our mind, and everything that we feels good about it. It's like we are out of control. We won't think so much about the consequences of the things we gonna do, let alone the small things that he had hinted before. We tend to forget it. Obviously, it's our fault.

Until he can't stand it anymore, he attacks. A severe one. At that point, no one could do a single thing to stop him. And at that point, we were shocked. We were stumbling, yet there are people who was calm enough to try to stop the action. Minutes after minutes, though the action was stopped, it was not good enough. At that moment, the decision is not on us anymore. It's His decision now. Either we make it or failed to do it, it's His decision now. He'll make a decision where no one can fight about. I wonder whether He will feel uncomfortable to make the decision. No matter what is the decision, we had to respect it.

But now, you can't pin point to others anymore. A decision had been made. It doesn't matter whether it's my fault or his fault or our fault. It wont't change a thing now.

stroke+brain hemorrhage=took someone away from us.

Al-fatihah and R.I.P-Yasmin Ahmad

~Papadom~

Later I will be away for a few hours at Dewan Tuanku Syed Putra in USM for this movie. The movie will be shown here, as one of Convex'09's activity. (Convex: convocation expo)

Synopsis:

Could a loving husband fulfill his late wife's wishes? This movie tells a tale of Saadom (Afdlin Shauki) who is a successful Nasi Kandar businessman in Pulau Pinang. His wife's last wishes before she passed away to take good care of their daughter Mia (Liyana Jasmay) changed Saadom's life forever. From a very busy businessman who is so infatuated with his Nasi Kandar business, Saadom changed into becoming a very dependable father who is very much focused on her daughter's life. As Mia, grows up she gets a bit annoyed with her father's endless care and devotion towards her which at times seem to much to handle. A huge dilemma arises as Mia is all grown up and ready for a university life. Saadom wishes that her daughter would proceed with her studies somewhere near Pulau Pinang but Mia chooses otherwise in order she could be far away from her father. Saadom gets panic and have no idea on how to fulfill his late wife's wishes to take care of their daughter.

Back to the basics

Humour, heart and love. These are the essential things a human should have. And these are the things that were shown by Yasmin Ahmad's babies. Most of the commercials and films from her have these elements, plus, they crosses the cross-cultural barriers. It was rare. Producers seldom do these as a little bit of 'wrong' action or word will cause a lot of criticism. But Yasmin do it on her on way, without gaining much troubles. Her babies were born from her observations through her daily life in Malaysia. She saw these things. These things are happening, but she make it apparent by showing it on the big screen. And the viewers was like, wow, a new element! which is half true, as those things that was shown was already there in front of us. The true part was it's true that it was a new element on the big screen (well, especially in Malaysia). It's a reminder to all Malaysian that afterall, we are Malaysian, which consists of Malays, Chinese, Indians, and the minorities. No one can ever change that!

Yasmin was admitted to hospital and underwent a surgery for brain haemorrhage on thursday. She was said to be in stable condition. Finger crossed that she will get well soon.

I especially lurve this ad:

Room Alone

Been staying alone since last Tuesday, and it will continue until the end of this semester. Not that I don't have a room mate, but my room mates had left me...for this semester, to go to Finland for the student exchange programme. Sigh. It's great to occupy a big room, but I wish to participate in the programme too. Money, money, money, always sunny in the rich man's world.

A spacious room and a small me. I can do anything I like without disturbing others. Jumping up and down, acting like a small kid, cuddle my soft toys, playing songs with the laptop's speaker, exercising and even singing out loud will not be a problem. Yeah, I've got my own room now, a room, all by myself. I was alone, I was all by myself. No one was looking, I was thinking of you.

It makes me think a lot when I'm alone. Think of the future, and reminiscing the past. Think of anything, and everything. It doesn't matter whether its possible or impossible. All I could do is just thinking, to keep my brain from dysfunction.

The source of thinking? Reading...anything...from revising studies to magazines to watching movies, all sorts of stuff.

Thus, a day went off, just like that.

-IL Divo & Celine Dion-

An inspirational and beautiful song.

I Believe In You

Lonely the path you have chosen

A restless road, no turning back

One day you will find your light again

Don't you know

Don't let go be strong

Follow your heart

Let your love lead through the darkness

Back to a place you once knew

I believe I believe I believe in you

Follow your dreams

Be yourself an angel of kindness

There's nothing that you cannot do

I believe I believe I believe in you

Tout seul tu t'en iras tout seul

Coeur ouvert à l'univers

Poursuis ta quête

Sans regarder derrière

N'attends pas

Que le jour se lève

Suis ton étoile

Vas jusqu'où ton rêve t'emporte

Un jour tu le toucheras

Si tu crois

Si tu crois

Si tu crois en toi

Suis ta lumière

N'éteins pas la flamme que tu portes

Au fond de toi souviens toi

Que je crois

Que je crois

Que je crois en toi

Someday I'll find you

Someday you'll find me too

And when I hold you close

I know that it's true

Follow your heart

Let your love lead through the darkness

Back to a place you once knew

I believe I believe I believe in you

Follow your dreams

Be yourself an angel of kindness

There's nothing that you cannot do

I believe I believe I believe in you

2009/2010

Though I tried to avoid it, I still can't prevent it from coming. I wish I can freeze the time, but I'm not Piper from the Charmed series. Hence, new semester came and started, and I can't find another way to escape it. Sigh. But the most important thing is, I'm now a final year student! I don't want to graduate!! I don't want to work!!! I had been escaping these facts since secondary days. Though I've been lucky for years, it seems like this time, I don't have any valid reason to run away again. But these facts come nearer and nearer to me. It's kindda scary when I think of it. I don't like complicated stuffs. I like school days (though I hate exams. hey, who lurve exams?!), half day of classes, being around with friends, go makan-makan together, lepak in library, etc. It's not a stressful job. I know I can't have the life without working, except...except that...I get married with a rich guy. Anyway, this also unlikely to happen. Guess I shall better prepare myself to accept the facts than finding those unlikely-to-happen's reason!

Anyway, this semester, I think it's like past semesters, I don't think it's a very very hectic schedule. It's just that there are days that my classes are continuos, like from 9am to 2pm, without a break. Though it will be a tiring day, I think it's better than there are few hours break between classes. I think it's a waste of time, especially if the break is only 1 hour. Sometime it's good, sometime it's not. And like past semesters, I don't have classes on Friday. Yeah!!

Well, classes has not really started in this week. First week is like an extra holiday for me, as lecturers need to confirm the amount of students taking the subject and registration for the tutorial class. There's no big changes around the uni, just that there are a bunch of newcomers. Seeing them walking around with the matrix card hanging around and sometimes looks like a lost lamb, I remembered my first week in uni. We are exactly the same! It's the same scene that goes on again and again, a same process of growing up.

That's life. The process of growing up will come again and again, and it happen not only to me, but to others too. It's a fact that I can't deny it, a fact that I need to accept it.

You're NOT alone

He's gone but will not be forgotten.

He will always in his family's heart.

He will always in his loved one's heart.

He will always in his fans' heart.

He will always in the world's heart.

He will never be alone!

Airport

It's been a while since I went to Kuala Lumpur International Airport@KLIA. The last time I was there, was to pick up my maid when she went back to Indonesia for a month long holiday. It was like 5 or 6 years ago. And since then, I have no reason to go there, as Low Cost Carrier Terminal@LCCT become the primary airport for my family. (AirAsia offer cheaper price mah!) But today (well, yesterday, to be precise, as I was writing after midnight), after 5 or 6 years later, here I am, at the place where Kimi Raikkonen & co used to get down from other parts of the world every year since 2001 for the Sepang F1 Grand Prix! But it was not me who took the plane. I was sending my brother who is going to Bintulu (MAS's ticket were much more cheaper this time), and my parents+aunt, plus all other stuffs that my brother might use. All in all, my brother went with a big luggage and 2 boxes. And I'm supposed to drive back the car. Hmm, always do these things!

Personally, I like airport. I love watching airplanes take of and landing. If possible, I want to stay near airport or better still, inside the departure area so that I can watch it! I still remember when I went for my first Formula 1 race back in 2007. While waiting for the qualifying race to begin, my brothers and I were actually looking to the KLIA's direction, to watch the airplanes take off and landing. Though it was not the full scene of taking off/landing, it was enough.

KLIA is much better than LCCT, as KLIA is, well, look much more like a normal airport. LCCT is like...an abnormal airport?? Hmm, don't know how to describe it. KLIA is much more spacious and the atmosphere are better.

I used to think of a scene where some fans preparing flowers or banners and waited for the arrival of their idols whenever I'm at KLIA, like what we had seen in television. It actually had cross my mind that I wanna do that too, at least once. But I just don't get it: where do they get the information of which plane/time do their idol is taking? Wasn't it supposed to be keep as a secret from them? And then this idea cross my mind too. Maybe I should work at airport, specifically, at the Immigration counter and then I will have chances to have a glimpse of them! :)

Anyway, ranting's time is over now. Time to go to bed and have a sweet dreams of meeting my idols!

Adios, my liltle brother!

2 in a day

Woke up by these news: Farrah Fawcett and Michael Jackson had passed away.

America's entertaiment industry has once again lost their greatest stars. 3 weeks ago, David Carradine, of Kung Fu (tv series) and Kill Bill (films) fame, was found dead in a hotel room in Bangkok.

Farrah Fawcet was a multiple Golden Globe and Emmy Award nominee, but she was famous for her Jill Munroe role in the 1976's tv series, Charlie's Angels. Ask any of your parent who had a chance of watching television programmes back in the '70s, probably they will know who is she. For me, I don't have any idea about her, but first heard of her when she announced that she was diagnosed with cancer.

Michael Jackson. I guess most of the people on the earth will roughly know about him. A performer since he was a kid, a singer who is idolised by many people, whether these people are normal people like me or people like Madonna. For me, MJ is a singer who has a good voice. I know nothing about him except that point. But I do know that he is very big, and famous, hmm, like Elvis Presley. Of course, both of them are different in a way, though.

Anyway, death is just another aspect of human's life cycle. Nobody can escape it, nor control it. When the time arrives, it's THE time.

RIP Farrah Fawcett and Michael Jackson.